Light the Night

2012-01-03T23:22:00.001+08:00

Separation really freaked me badly. It really does! I dont know what Im thinking!

2011-12-28T23:43:00.001+08:00

My Birthday wish for this year is very simple. Let us stay in contact and be so close as now when you leave. That's all I ask for this year.

2011-12-27T23:42:00.001+08:00

我真的好不舍得！好难想象那一天的到来。

2011-12-18T23:37:00.002+08:00

Guess this year I will spent the worst X'mas and Birthday! It really feel so terrible. I had enough of guessing and self delusion! Why people whom matters to me so much are just... I had no idea! It really feel so terrible, I really dont wanna lose anyone of them. They are so important but am I as important to them too?

I really hate crying! I guess I cried way way enough for this past few months. Enough is enough! If you all lovee me, just let me go then if that the way you all want! Better than giving me those on and off attention! It really suck!

2011-10-02T14:10:00.002+08:00

Suddenly feel so guilty when Zhi Hao said that sentence to me yesterday. I know is really unfair to you and derrick but that doesn't only apply to the both of you. Hiang Peng also one of them. Sorry, Is just that I'm not able to get past myself.

Perhaps one day, I will be able to accept you guys as one of my very close friends. Right now, I'm still struggling with my current situation with those people that I damn scared to lose them. Give me some time guys.

2011-09-29T15:22:00.002+08:00

Saw this quote on facebook, thinking it would be good to share it here:

People cry not because they are weak,
Is becoz they are strong for too long.

Does this phrase of wisdom applied to me? I have no idea, I only know that Im really not in the best of the mood for the past two months. The thoughts of having to lose people I love yet matter is terrifying.

I always thought that what happened in the past made me stronger but I guess I am wrong. Everything I feel that history is going to repeat itself again, Im scared! What happened in the past is a mistake, a worst mistake I ever made. I shouldn't have allow people to come close to me and hurt me eventually.

Especially when you are being hurt by the person that you loved the most. And indeed, Im going through all this again. I had no idea why am I giving the same person a chance to hurt me over and over again! Sounds ridiculous right? But that the truth, perhaps the person matters too much that I can bear to let go?

Instead of letting go, I put up with all the nonsenses, hurtful messages and etc. Call me stupid, but when you met someone whom you really cherished, I bet you guys will do more crazy and unexplainable stuffs.

Emopotato =(

2011-09-28T21:05:00.003+08:00

I am so sick and tired of pretending that Im fine infront of everyone when the actual fact is that Im NOT!

You guys just matter too much to me!

Baby, I just kinda love you too much. It just seem so weird, Is been so long since I can remember when is the last time you called me baby. Im still waiting for the day to come. You really does matters to me a lot but then is it the same for you too? Do I matter as much to you too? I read thru all the previous messages that we send to one another.

After reading thru it, tears came coming down my cheeks. I really miss those days when you send those sweet messages. I remembered reading one that goes this way 'Me: Why are you sad if I die, You: Coz you are my life' But is it really the same now?

I really dont know who Im talking to now. I only know that I hate the way we are behaving now, we seem so distant. I cant imagine the days when you are gone.

Know what, infront of you, I always have to pretend that Im fine when the actual facts is that Im not. I dont want you to think that Im always emo. But in actual fact is that Im really down! I no longer know how to cope with my emotion. I only know that you matters a lot to me. I love your companion. But right now, BABY, YOU SEEMS LIKE A STRANGER THAT DOESNT CARE ABOUT MY EXISTENCE!

=(

2011-09-17T12:37:00.003+08:00

I guess I been blogging too recently and frequently. But right now, I am seriously feel very down with no one that I can actually talk to.

Is really not easy to cope with all this overwhelming emotions that is constantly bothering me over and over again.

The thought of having to lost baby, friends and whatever really freaked me out badly especially when my relationship with every one is deteriorating days by days especially with those people that I love.

I guess everyone undergo the feeling of separation before, so without explanation you all should know how it feels right? I am undergoing thru that everyday.

I no longer know how to communicate with people I love. I don't dare to go too near lest they find me a chore, move further from me. But then, it really hurts badly. I am so afraid that all the sacrifices I ever made for them is useless. I hate to be taken for granted! I am a human too! I got my feelings, emotions.

I yearned to be loved too! Why whenever is come to relationship, friendship and whatever shit, I am also the one bound to sacrifice. Am I that worthless?! I seriously had no idea anymore. I just hate my life more and more.

2011-09-13T23:19:00.001+08:00

How? How? How?

I damn scare that I will lost BABYY!

Will the day come? I dare not think about it anymore!

FML )=

I feel fucking so insecure!

2011-09-09T19:25:00.002+08:00

Someone quoted me a saying today.

There's no right or wrong in loving ppl. The only wrong is place and time... Meeting the right person at the wrong time and place is more torturing.

So what's my case now? Loving the right person at the wrong time and place or loving the wrong person? I really dont know. I really hope that Im not loving the wrong person in the first place. Guess this time I gotta be lost for a long period of time. Can someone help me?

I really hope that I didn't lovee the wrong person. If not, I guess Im constantly loving the wrong person. And if that the case, I might as well drop dead!

Be it friend or other. May god/someone bless me!

2011-09-08T23:14:00.002+08:00

I really dont know what Im doing! Is it good to maintain things this way?

But at least I know you are happier, perhaps maybe for your sake, we shall?

I really have no idea! LOST!

2011-09-04T01:28:00.002+08:00

I miss all the happy memories and messages that we once shared! Is it possible to go back to the past baby? I really dont and no longer know how to suppress my feelings when I have to pretend Im fine in front of you but in actual fact Im not!

If you no longer care about me, just let me go! Those angst messages that you send me is constantly appearing. Is just like cutting me apart. You just matter to me, but do I matter to you?

You said you care but how come I dont feel it. Forget it! Just let me go then!

2011-09-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

I feel like a fool. For the whole of today, I carry my phone no matter where I go, just hoping to get a sms from you. But the day is ending soon and not even one msg from you. Sighh!

If is in the past, I guess I had already lost count.

*Pout! Whyy is this happening to me?! FML!

I guess I really forget how to smile. )=

Someone say I kinda affect his mood when he worked with me today, but please be understanding. I really cant force myself to smile or pretend Im happy when the fact is IM NOT! Sorry to affect you. I HAD A HARD TIME!!! )=

2011-09-01T19:10:00.003+08:00

From today onwards, The EDWARD NEO that you all know is DEAD!

I GIVE UP! I ADMIT DEFEAT!

I get the pictures clearly now, is time to let go. And Im serious this time, Im going to break all connection with everyone so that no one will be able to hurt me this deeply again! AGAIN!

Dont bother to msg me, unless is important, if not I WILL NEVER REPLY YOU ALL! SORRY!

2011-08-26T23:19:00.002+08:00

I guess Im lost! I miss you talking to me over anything.

Right now, I kinda feel that you dont exist in reality. We kinda msg more than we talk in real life. Whyy is this so? Baby, I really dont feel good.

You once wrote 'You will always be there for me when I need you and you will never leave me'. Does this still apply?

I kinda scare to talk and msg you nowadays as you keep saying that we shouldnt msg each other so often. I kinda feel that we have run out of topics unlike in the past.

*POUTS! Whyy is all this happening? Can we go back to the past?

2011-08-22T17:34:00.000+08:00

Im seriously lost for words.

I really cant control myself. Im trying hard to keep a distance from you, afraid of hurting you again. But whenever you try to be close with me, I just cant stop myself. Baby, I longed wanted to call you that today but am I still in the position to call you baby? I dont know. I miss you a lot!

I seriously hope that we can still be as close as the past. Can we work towards that goal together?

2011-08-13T17:42:00.003+08:00

I believed I tried my best! I tried all way I can to salvage our relationship! I REALLY DO!

I LOVE YOU TOO MUCH BABY! That why I hate to be treat this way.

I seriously have no idea why are we coming to a situation that we no longer care for one another. But I still love you and care for you. But do you?

I really had enough all the nonsense you are giving me, always siding with him. What am I to you? I have feelings too, I am a human!

I really never regret getting close with you. I miss those good old days. I really DO!

2011-08-12T22:12:00.002+08:00

Perhaps is really time to end all this. I had enough of all the nonsense I been getting. It just feel like history is repeating itself once again. But this time round, I wonder how long will I need to take to recover if it ever happened again.

A lot of thoughts have been running in my mind for the past 15 days when I am here. I seriously hate enough of all the crying and emoness! I just wish that everything will be same like before! But baby, is it really possible?

I really hate the way we are behaving now, I had so much to tell you but I seriously had no idea on how to get it across to you! Things wasnt like this in the past. i seriously have no idea why must we come to this extent when we are behaving like stranger!

Is it really time to leave? I really dont know. I dont bear too! But Baby, do I really still have a choice now? I been typing a series of post in my laptop, and is something which I never hope to be shown to you. But the feelings I been getting is telling me that the day of separation is here.

I had been telling you how I am feeling but nothing we do seem to be helping. I really hate the feelings that we are no longer close. I am really trying all ways to salvage the situation we are in now but is seriously not helping me.

Whenever I asked you, you tend to side him! Always asking me to give in, but have you ever stand in my shoes? Who is going to give in to me? I admitted I am jealous whenever you tend to side him more. I feel like a subsitution but you deny it!

I remember typing a sentence in my post 'perhaps when the day I choose to leave you not because I longer love you but on the contrast, I love you too much. Like I told you, I dont wish to be the fking one to hurt you again. I hate hurting you! I hate to see you unhappy because of all my nonsense. I hate to see you drifting away from me. I hate the feelings of leaving you one day. I hate the possibility of history repeating again. I HATE MY LIFE NOW!

I dont understand why am I always made to undergo all this fking things over and over again. Why is heaven so unfair to me? I been thinking whether is it better that we never get close to one another in the first place. I really dont know. I really miss the days baby. I really do! Do you miss the days like me too?

If I am given a chance to turn back the time, I guess I will still make the same decision. Will you? All I ask for now is no longer impossible. I just wish that everythings will return back to normal. I hate quarreling with you over him. I really had so much to tell you but up to now, I still dont really have a chance to talk to you properly.

At the rate we are going, perhaps maybe you should let me go! At least I will be unhappy alone instead of dragging everyone in. That the only last thing I can do for you baby. Maybe you will be happier? Stop thinking that you are happier knowing me cause you are just deceiving yourself. Right now, I just feel that you regretted knowing me )=

I just realised that the day I started blogging is also the starting of my misery back then. Right now, I am back to blogging again because I feel that the same like what happened four years back. FML! Am I such a loser? Am I sure a failure in life too? Any kind soul wanna enlighten me?

p/s: BABYY, thanks for all the fond memories you have given me over that short period of time. Although is a short span of happiness but is indeed the best time I ever had after what happened 4 years ago. Because of you, I manage to walk out of my past and accept people again. But this time round, I wonder how long will I ever need to walk out of it. Will I still be able to accept other so easily? I really dont know. Perhaps, I would rather be alone.

Although you might not get to see this post as I never tell you that I do blog. The last thing I wanna let you know is that I lovee you and care about you too. So please dont think that I enjoy hurting you. I guess is really time to end everything. I wish you happiness!

From someone who love you.

2011-08-07T21:46:00.000+08:00

Just realised that the more I love, the more distant I get. I hate the feelings! How I wished that time will be able to reverse. Perhaps then I shouldnt have started with you. At least I wont be as hurt as Im now.

Everytime I recalled the happy times in the past, the feelings just suck. I longed wanted to go back to the past where I can talk anything under the sun with you. Leaning onto you like a baby, whining with you comforting me. But those were the days.

I seriously hate the feelings of been angry with you over minor issue just to get your attention I guess. I guess I love you more than anything else but everytime when I get the cold shoulder from you, I feel so down. I voiced my feelings out to you but you denied it. You say Im sensitive.

But pls, I dont think Im sensitive. That is the feelings I had from you. I feel like a human ball or a toy that you are sick of playing with it. I dont wish to be treated that way. I lovee you more than anything else. But whenever I think of the way you treat me, I feel hurt. I hate it! I wished to be close with you again baby! I LOVE YOU AND I CANT BEAR TO LOSE YOU!

Please dont let history repeat itself once again! I wont be able to take it anymore.

2011-06-27T22:55:00.004+08:00

Been feeling down since last saturday. Whenever I think of it, tears started rolling down my cheeks. Can someone help me out or talk to me please? Im seriously lost! I can't concentrate! By the rate Im going, tear duct gonna be dry up soon )=

p/s: It really hurts! This time really hurts!

2011-05-17T00:46:00.002+08:00

Just realised that mood start to change when it is quiet at night and no one talks to you. Feeling very down recently, I just find myself for being a loser. Whenever it comes to relationship thinggy, I tend to think too much for other and decided to sacrifice myself.

Some people might just find me a fool but they never know what im going through! I wont't wish to lost my friend just for a girl! For me, I find friendship most important than being in a relationship. I know not many will agree with me but I have my own constaint!

Just like in the past, there's someone I like but then I didn't take the intiative! Although the feeling is still there, I guess I will never let my feeling known to her. Not in the past nor in the future! Just wish that she stay blissful always!

Recently, there's one too! But then, for the sake of my friend. I won't take any chance!

Find me a loser? I don't know! Just wish that someone can enlighten me!

2010-11-17T22:46:00.002+08:00

Hello people! Is been ages since I last updated my blog. So I shall be kind enough to update my follower if I still have what had happened for the past 1 year and so. So guys, before you proceed to read on. Get a glass of Mocha or whatsoever... Might be a long post, I guess.. HAHA!

Let's continue from the time I left off, hope I can still remember. I started my attachment as a auditor in one of the big 4 accounting firms in Singapore. Experiences gained there is marvellous, useful and I kinda enjoy my 6 months there. Peoples I met were great and helpful and hence it make my attachment a fruitful one. Must be wondering which firm I got in? Well, I'm not going to disclose... HAHA! Ask me personally if there is a need huh? LOL! Anyway, so I worked there till February 2010! Due to the fact that I can't diclose anything regarding the company that I went auditing on, so I'm not going to disclose the name of the company that I went to audit with my senior... But I can say that I went to a number of company which are in the manufacturing, services and etc sector.

Nothing much happened during my attachment, but work is kinda tiring. As we approached the peak period, I once worked till 1am. Although is tiring but is fun! HAHA! So nothing much, we shall fly to February 2010! HAHA! After the end of my attachment, is CNY! Nothing much too, same routine everyday... I think I once posted on this previously, if u wanna know wat I did, please back track! HAHA! Rest for 2 weeks, I went back to the firm that I'm attached to for my attachment to be a temporary auditor for 2 months.

During my extension, I went TAIWAN with Sebastian, Joel, Shu Zhen and Lay Kun for our graduation tour! HAHA! Back to Taiwan feeling is great, I went there 5 years ago. I feel that a lot of things have changed, but well things sure changed for the better. Even human, am I right? HAHA! Well, photos is up on facebook so I shall not wasted my time uploading here! HAHA! But I really enjoy that trip... Is a luxurious trip! HAHA! I LOVED THE HOTEL ESP the LAST NIGHT! Spent near 2K for the whole trip! But my lovely mum paid 1K for me! HAHA!

So we shall now fast forward to ending June, just 1 months before I enlisted into army. I went Redang with Zhen Hui, Sin Ping and Shi Yan. Bus ride there was crazy! SUPER DUPER LONG! HAHA! is about 13 hours including of the boat ride in. But snorkeling there was a real experience! The fishes literally swim with you and you can even go after baby sharks! LOVE the places there and if I ever had a chance, I will go again. But the next place that I wanna go Snorkeling will be PHI PHI ISLAND! Shall go next year when I have leave to clear...

So the month that I dread the most came... 2 August! The day I enlisted into army... Woke up in the morning, prepared my stuffs and went to pick Huiting, Zhen Hui and Say Hoe up.. They accompanied me to Tekong.. I have great frens huh? HAHA! They become my family member as my parent can't send me there.. Oh ya, before I enlist, the four of us have been mahjonging, suppering for a long period! HAHA! But luckily, days in army was manageable! Met a few nice people, like my tekong, AFTC buddy, DANIEL! Kinda disappointed now too cause we are in different camp :( But guys, we will be meeting up soon for a gathering :) So I shall just update till here then.. Is kinda late, shall go have a bath and sleep.. Tomorrow will be a long day again..

Oh well, I guess your drink will be cool by now.. ENJOY UR drinks and Goodnight!

2009-08-11T03:39:00.007+08:00

Once again, I neglected my blog for like 23785342 months!

Blogger change and I'm some how lost regarding the usage of it.. HAHA! Any kind soul willing to teach me?

Well, I'm not going to state what happened everyday cause I dun have super memories to remember what I did over this few months.. I can only remember that this few months is a torture to me and my fellow coursemates! AM I right!!?? PROJECTS PROJECTS AND PROJECTS, is the only words in our dictionary.. Luckily, everything is coming to the end in another 14 hours! HAHA.. But the bad news is that first exam paper is coming.. On next friday and is the freaking AUDIT paper! I'm so ....! Dun even how wat word to use to discuss it! HAIX..

Enough of boring stuffs!

June was great! Went Genting Highland with my secondary school fren on 22 June to 24 June.. All girls leh... HAHA! Well, cause we are good friend so is ok, but the sad thing is that one of my very good friend, Sin Ping can't make it due to some thing happened at home.. Well, is ok! Cause we are going on another trip soon right? Preferably this end of August or December or next year February, BANGKOK we are coming! HAHA! Abit looking forward to Bangkok than my attachment which is starting real soon! 7 September to 12 February.. 8.30am to 5.30pm which is a torture to me.. Hey, Yvonnes (ong and phui), we can cab there!!! HAHA...

I guess if I tell you guys that I just came back from Genting, will you think i'm crazy? Indeed, I just came back from Genting like 8 hours ago with my mum and my cousin. Went on the 8 August to 10 August.. Only after the trip then I realized that I'm always oversea during National Day! LOL! Didn't went outdoor this time round cause I spent all my money shopping.. Is damn cool to shop there, ALL SALES SALES SALES.. Spent ard RM'_'00.. Luckily my mum sponsor me alot, if not I will be eating bread everyday! HAHA.. GUESS THE NUMBER urself and check with me! HAHA! First day, went shopping and nothing much.. Oh ya, went drinking at night and the bartender still rmb me cause during the trip in June make him rmb all of us! Damn cool k!

Second day morning, went to play bowling for 2 hours at just a mere RM18... CHEAP RIGHT?

Enuff of my trip.. shall update again once I start my attachment or after my exam.. 4 papers to go!

P/S: Someone asked me this question, is Genting that fun that I can always go.. My reply is: Genting is never fun but it really depends on who you are going with.. So up to date, I enjoy every trip to Genting regardless of who go with me!

Gonna slp now... Check back soon!

2009-04-27T14:20:00.000+08:00

I AM SO TIRED TODAY!

2009-04-04T02:58:00.002+08:00

Seem like I have kinda neglected my blog for months but well, is all because I have no mood to update or too busy to update.. But something happened tonight that make me wanna blog about it...

I'm damn pissed off with my sis!!! Guess wat, when I am sleeping in the living room while watching tv.. She went to bath and the moment she came out, she shouted at me and the next moment, I found myself awaken from fright!! And the first words that came out from my mouth is 'GO AND DIE'.. Damn angry as my heart is like pounding damn fast and it only calm down in an hour or more..

Can u imagine that your sibling do this to do when you are sleeping soundly!? If you wanna wake him/her up, should just pat the person or something and not jump and beat u up! Right now I feel so unjustified, I wanna go to her room and scare her up to let her have the taste of being scare awaken.. But well, I am not that evil I guess..

Should I being found dead oneday, it could be because she scare me to death! Anyway, check back soon k? I promise to finish the post on my trip to Hongkong last December...

2009-01-06T23:24:00.003+08:00

Last post for today before I stop everything since I am in the mood of updating! Wahaha!

MY HONGKONG TRIP!

24 December 2008
Went to Changi Airport Terminal 1 for checking in at 4.00pm and our flight is at 6.30pm.. Hence, me and my sis went to shop around the duty free store for the Gucci Wallet she want but the design she want is not available there hence no choice, she didn't buy... Board the flight, had dinner on board and sleep before having the energy to explore the the nightlife of HongKong!

Reached Hongkong at 10.10pm and we have quite long for the representative to bring us to our hotel called Kimberly Hotel... He met us at 11pm and our hotel is at Tsim Shat Sui and their Tsim Shat Sui is like our orchard... Town area and there is road block that night therefore the car can't send us directly there but to drop us off somewhere near the hotel and we are to walk in at 12.30am.. Police was spotted everywhere therefore I ask them how to go and they even gave the wrong direction, got 1 told me is 2 street down and turn left when I reached the second street, no hotel was in sight so I asked again.. The policeman told me is 2 street back and turn right.. Lucky we met this helpful lady that gave us the right direction..

Checked in at 1.30am and called my tourguide for the next day. Went for supper and I saw a celebrity but sadly I dunno her name cause she is not my idol! HAHA... Slept at 3am!

Check back soon for my second day at Hongkong!

2009-01-06T22:42:00.009+08:00

Second Post for the day! Gonna be an outdated post too!

Last Friday, Shuyu, Fran and Joel arranged a surprise for me if I am not wrong... Haha!

Shuyu told me that we are going to meet at 2.00pm at Bugis so I went out and this Joel msg me and told me that he is not going.. Feeling a little unhappy and send an msg to him... Content shall be reveal later...

Reached Bugis, the two gals played a plank on me, no answering my call and telling me that they are at FOX and they hide themselves and the next moment I saw them, Joel was behind me! He actually show the msg that I texted to him to the two of them, argh! Lucky shuyu believe my explanation.. Content goes this way 'Very sian to go out with only 2 gals', I can't rmb the content but is something like that and because my stupid Iphone died on me today, all my msg are GONE!

Walked ard Bugis and we proceed to Miss Clarity Cafe for lunch and BOO! They order a cake for me.. Is something that I can't rmb when is the last time I blow an candle and make wishes infront my friends... THANKS! I will always rmb the day... But I am rather surprise with the things that shuyu and fran gave me as a birthday present and this gonna be an secret hence it will not be revealed here! Haha... During the whole lunch, the gals are so curious over the gal that I like! Haix, slowly figure out! CHEERS!

PHOTOS OF THE FOOD!

Shuyu's Fish Cordon Bleu

Mine Garlic Fish

Fran's Burger

Joel's Old Mac Donald Had A Farm

After lunch, Joel left as he got something on.. So the 3 of us shopped around Suntec and Marina Square.. We went timbre at around 7 plus and is full house when we got there and whatmore we are given the counter seat.. Luckily there are WIFI there, hence we source for OOSH at Dempsey Hill number and make an reservation at 8.30pm and we cab there...

Order some drinks and a big Pizza! Left around 10.30pm as Fran wanna go home earlier! Stay Tuned!

2009-01-06T22:27:00.003+08:00

New Post for the Year 2009!

Will this year be better than Year 2008? I hope it will be! Wahaha.. Let's start with some old update... And new year new font for my blog!

I went HongKong last December 24 to 28 December.. I will update photo after blogging this.. Stay tune =)

31 December
Same routine, I went countdown with ping and yan... My BFF! Must be wondering how come countdown only 3 of us.. Well, this is a special bond that the 3 of us shared and is something that other wouldn't understand.. Am I right, the 2 of u?

We went Marina Square for dinner and U all know what!? We went to Pariss Buffet at 6.30pm and we waited till 8.00pm before we start eating.. All because of the blur waitress to go highlight the number on the waiting list with our name and they thot we went in when we did not! Haix...

Ate till 10.30pm and we proceed to esplanade slowly and sat down on the bridge waiting for the countdown to start.. Well, I should say that this year firework is not that nice compared to last year.. Anyway, I think the time we spent is great~

After the firework, we walked all the way to timbre and we spent nearly an hour to reach there cause ROADBLOCK! Reached timbre at 2.ooam and left at 3.30am.. Meet up soon my BFF!

2008-12-13T00:13:00.003+08:00

What a day! Since Friday is the last paper for my common test, I should feel happy right but I dropped my Iphone on the ground again and both time is at Jurong Point, the biggest shopping center in suburban! Goodness, the button dented in! And the bad news is that the fastest I can change my phone is next week JAN! Be it 12 months or 21 months upgrade! I dun care, I wanna switch back to NOKIA!

2008-12-06T01:25:00.002+08:00

Finally back to blogging... I am so busy with school! Projects and tonnes of assignment... ... I am having my common test now and I am like to lazy to revise! Boo! Well this is not the main reason for me to come and blog.. Got 2 issues here, care to share yur comment?

Issue 1
I have received the email from the school telling me to go for the interview for oversea attachment but I kind of feeling reluctant to go.. Maybe u think that this is a golden opportunity but then the thought of having to leave my family for 5 months put me off.. Anyone wanna tell me what to do?

Issue 2
Dunno whether should I blog.. Anyway in short, do u all think that feeling should be made known?

Last, Pictures would not be up so soon cause I am really busy.. check back soon.. And last but not least, I have someone using my name to reply tag on my chatbox, anyway I have blocked him/her.. Check back soon!

2008-10-31T09:52:00.002+08:00

Finally back from my trip to Thailand and Ipoh... Can u believe it, this trip is a torture!

Travel from 1 place to another take more than 1 hour, which mean that most of the trip is spent on travelling! =) Anyway, in just 1 word.. BORING!

Shall update the photo soon.. I hope I can remember huh..

School start for 3 weeks and today is the last day of school for this week and I still can't find motivation to study hard! Die lor! Motivation, where are u!? Oversea attachment submittion day is around the corner and I have yet to decide whether should I go for it... Mum is reluctant for me to go but dad and Sis is so supportive.. What to do? Go or dun go?

p/s: Check back soon for photos!

2008-10-17T15:50:00.002+08:00

Boo! I am sad? Confuse? Lost? I myself also cant describe how I am feeling now...

Do u all agree that one sided affectionate is tiring and the outcome is always unpredictable? Right now, I am feeling so tired and just hopefully wish that everything will end soon! Soon as in what? I dunno too! Anyone care to share somethings with me?

2008-10-17T02:14:00.004+08:00

Weird uh! Now then I realize that my total posts since the first day I start this blog is 92 including this current one! LOL, which means basically I update once every 3 or 4 days...

Boo! Eunice must be thinking y I should I start blogging then right? Eh, I dunno! i have this random thought that came into my mind recently and is like alway on my mind... I am thinking of leaving Singapore... As in not for a holiday but for long term or even 4eva.. The country of my choice would be HongKong! But well, I guess it would be possible for now but I believe once there's chance... I will leave!

Anyway, Shall update on my mood this few days.. Feeling very happy plus emo plus distracted.. Mix feeling uh! As for happy, I dun wanna disclose it here cause I dun want irrelevant ppl to know but if U wanna know, can ask me personally or MSN.. Emo is still the same as the previous post and for distracted, I dunno.. Maybe is because is the first week of school hence not used to it...

But now I think I really lose interest in studying and I think I am struggling very hard! I feel so tired even though 7 weeks of holidays just ended! Well, can someone guide me along? Boo!

Check back soon for the next post, will update more photos for my chalet!

2008-10-06T01:40:00.001+08:00

Losing a friend is easy but retriving is difficult.. Shall elaborate more when I am free. I am just emo~ing, wondering when the day will come where we will be the best pal again!

2008-09-08T21:54:00.004+08:00

A tribute to my beloved mum...

Although this post came a little late but at least it's still here... Thanks for everything you have done for me be it in the past, present or future! Without you, I am not be what I am today. Days with you around is so fortunate, I dun have to worry this or that, whether am I hungry or full cause I have you beside me caring and always looking out for me! I believed when you see me lying in the hospital in March, your heart hurt as much as the pain I am going through physically... Your unconditional love made me so guilty when I make U angry or whatsoever... But I gonna promise you that those things in the past will not happen again and we would be best mother and son in the whole world.. Haha..

Happy Belated Birthday to you on 4th September!

p/s: Thanks for your Iphone!

Hope you enjoy your dinner at Sushi Tei at Holland Village and also like the present that we get for you!

2008-09-08T21:52:00.001+08:00

Topic shall be revealed in 1 days time, Check out soon!

Anyway, Happy 19th Birthday to Yan! Enjoy your day!

2008-09-01T23:07:00.001+08:00

Back to blogging after my 4 days of work at Comex Show! Days there is so taxing and mentally exhausting! This shall gonna be a long post, so is wise to drag a bread and a hot drink beside to eat while reading.. Haha!

Day 1
Was told to report at 10.30 am outside Suntec Convention Hall, so meet up with Herman and we trained there. Our 'Bitchy' Alicia(Boss) told us to wait outside before she come out and bring us in, so we waited and waited and she is not in sight OK! So we called her again and she told us to go outside Hall 401, reached there waited and waited before she appear infront of us. Went in and saw a number of ppl inside and the first thing I told herman is that those 2 guys look so unfriendly.. Haha, but that is not the case, shall elaborate more later. So we collect our shirt and went to change. Had our lunch and the crowd came in at 12pm. Met a new friend, Andy(from rp) who is very friendly compare to one 'Bitch'-only Andy and Herman know who the person is.. Haha!! So the 2 of us tend the counter area, is all because of the stupid KENNY(one of the supervisor) , he said we are chatting non-stop and hence he told Andy to move to another counter. TSK! WTF lor, first day, I dare said Andy and I are the best seller lor! It could be because we look more friendly and approachable! Haha, had our dinner at nearly 7 and we stood while having dinner, what more the food SUX! Job end at ard 10pm and reached home ard 11pm. The feeling back home is undescribable, only those who work there will understand.. Haha!

Day 2
Resport at 10.30am, they very no brain one! Ask us to report so early and what we do there is to chat till 11.20 have lunch then begin work. Andy was being ask to move over to the other side and hence the 'Bitch' came over, omg my life standing with her is like @#$%^&*!!! I CANT STAND HER! She think she very pretty? The eye lashes look so ugly and slutty! I think those auntie that came to buy ink look pretty than her lor! Same routine for the days but this time better, we manage to sit down while eating.. Haha! I hate this day because she is standing beside me!

Day 3

Same thing, report at 10.30am! Chat with Andy and 12noon, the ppl flow in like a river lor! Anyway, is not the main point. The food is alway the same and hence is not really edible, lucky i also have my lunch and dinner with andy therefore I gave most of my portion to him! Dun c him average average, he can eat alot! haha, better dun write too much lest he read it. Haha! End work earlier today, so met up with clement who is also working at Comex Show to meet my IS classmate at boat quay 'amber'. Goodness! Once I reached there, Pingli mix a cup of coke with martell and ask me to 'ta' with her. Somemore I still have work the next day lor! Then we played alot of game and even have to drink those pure martell if we lose.. Luckily, I am not drunk! Haha..

Photo with our IS teacher, Willie!

Anyway we are going to have another outing soon and this time round everyone must get drunk! haha!

Day 4
Finally last day of work! Andy is back to the counter with me and I dunno Y I cant curb my anger and finally we have a clash with the 'Bitch'(not my boss but another one). Somemore still from ngee ann, BA somemore! Haix.. Anyway, Andy back at the counter mark the day cause I dun have to look at the stupid slutty face.. Haha! Last day was fun, when the show end, we tore our sale booklet and anyhow give out freebie! Goodness la, U can c how greedy Singaporean can be, free photo paper still want pen, extra bag.. Had a group photo before we bid goodbye to one another. Hope to c u guys again but not that 'Bitch'..

Andy is beside me and my sweetie at the right hand side bending down! Haha! Jus joking!

After work, met up with shiyan who is working at the show also and we trained back to Jurong Point and went for supper at the Xin HongKong Cafe with herman and we talked abt our younger days in secondary.. Topic shall not be announce today but some other days... Check back soon! Haha!

2008-08-27T00:15:00.002+08:00

WoohOO! Finally started on my driving practical, the feeling of driving is GREAT! Well, I gonna chiong my driving practical lesson before the start of my holiday then I will be able to take my test.. Should be able to pass before this year end.. Shall update once there is anything interesting happening during my lesson.. Haha!

2008-08-24T02:32:00.005+08:00

Ok, Back from popular demand.. Haha, a little bu yao lian right? Well, Poa Yin and Eunice is like urging me to update. So I shall update what I being doing this past week..

Well, we are having exam and so I am busying studying because I was having high fever last week and no choice but to rest as much as I can and therefore I cant study and I am having high high high fever, 39.8 for 5 days.. Feel so terrible and the aftermatch now is that, I am having a bad sore throat!

Well, enough about exam! I think I will be able to do well for IFA, FIT and TAXATION but as for COSTING! Haix, dun wanna think about that.. The paper is like so difficult la, the lecturer want us to die liao.. Well, dun wanna think too much cause there is nothing much I can do.. BOO!

Tuesday is a bad day, I was having my dinner and I ate ROJAK and the next moment, my left hand side braces came off.. Is precisely the metal slipped out of the 'tube' and it penetrate onto the surface of the gum. Sound painful right? But actually still bearable.. HAHA! Must be thinking how come I suddenly wanted to put braces right? I long wanted to put but I am afraid of this and that and recently my gum was infected cause of my bad biting, so no choice the way to rectify it is to put BRACES! So I am offically a BRACES boy on 2 August in case you dunno.. haha..

Well, let move on to the last paper day which is on fri 22 Aug. After the paper, me, shuyu, joel and fran headed to suntec city for my wonderfullest delicious lunch at KUSHINBO! Well, a little ex but is worth it right joel? We shall go there for our dinner one day.. HAHA.. But 1 sad thing happen, my braces on my right broke! BOO!!! No choice but to cab there because the only timing they gave me is like 30 mins away and I still have to meet the other group.. So cabbed there with Joel! Show you some pictures of the food, sadly, only desserts!

After fixing my braces, we went to BALMORAL PLAZA, De Coder's to meet the other and play there till 6pm before we headed down to Marina Square to watch fireworks... We stood there for 1 hour before it start ok! Is 1 HR!!! with our stupid heavy notes.. after watching it, we headed home.. Home sweet home at around 11..

That's my brother! Cute hor.. Flaming HOT red! Haha

Poor Joel being drawn by us.. Well, who ask your group to lose! haha

Group photo at De Coder's

Group photo at Marina Square!

Left to right: Qi Ren, Roy, Me, Joel, Eugene, Marcus, Shu hua, Sebastian, Rui Shan, Shu Zhen, Xue Ting, Geng Bee, Lay Kun and Hui Yi...

OK! That's all.. check back soon for more update! haha!

2008-08-11T22:55:00.002+08:00

Well, yesterday went New York New York to celebrate herman's belated belated birthday.. Cannot blame me lor, not lack of sincerity to celebrate on actual day is because one of our bro is in army liao, so timing difficult to match so no choice but to drag this yesterday.. I always like the ribs at NYNY however yesterday portion was so big that I feel so bloated after finishing it..

Met family in the night. Dine at Dempsey's Hill at the restaurant DOME.. After ordering Chicken Cordan Bleu, I realised that I am so bloated that I dun wish to eat anything, no choice but to stuff it down as the food is being served. It NICE! but it could be nicer if I am not feeling that bloated.. After that went BEN & JERRY for strawberry cheesecake! WOOHOO, so happy.. Looking forward for the next dinner..

Now, I only wish to find motivation to study for my exam next week.. Anyway, going for sushi with Yan tml.. Shall update soon and hope there is photos.. haha

2008-08-07T23:33:00.002+08:00

Not knowingly, this simple blog of mine have accompanied me for 383 days. Thank you BLOG! Sound weird right to thank something that does not exist in real life but well it indeed accompanied me through those hard times and those wonderful times I have.

Unknowingly, it become a part of my routine to record my happy and unhappy things. I blog not because I want other to notice or anything but act as it somethings that record down so that I have have memories of those events. However there is somethings that I wished that I can record is to blog about our promise we made 3 years ago which is to go Cruise again when we turn 18.. Will that day ever come? I also hold on to that dream waiting for it to come true...

Sometime I really feel that I am not good in handling relationship, can anyone teach me or give me some pointer so that I am able to get my frens back? Because of all this issue, I am so tired and sometime even feel that mental state going downhill.. Haix.. Maybe is because of exam stress huh? I dunno!

2008-08-02T23:59:00.002+08:00

I went for my braces today.. OMG, I look so wierd la..

Reach the clinic at 10am, doctor start cleaning my teeth and he proceeded to fix the wires and bands. After the whole procedure, he extracted 2 of my teeth out lor.. Was like so nervous la.. The pulling part is painless but the injection part is painful.. Well, hope this 1.5 years will pass quickly so that I can remove it.. CIAO!!!

2008-07-28T01:49:00.002+08:00

Well, at first I wanted to type other things here.. But I decided not.. Haha..

I cant get to sleep because my tooth separator is killing me.. My lower jaw is so tight that it become so numb and painful! Doctor lied to me, telling me it feel like a big chunk of meat stuck in between the teeth.. Is not the case lor!! ARGH, how to sleep?

2008-07-23T23:15:00.002+08:00

Hmm, I think I should wake up my idea already... Signed up for driving course for like 6 months and I still haven done my BTT? Well, I swore to complete my course before my bdae!!! Eugene Chng, stop laughing, I make sure I will pass and then when we go out for lunch during our break, can help u drive too.. But at least I am better than sebastian and joel lor.. haha!!!

2008-07-23T23:14:00.001+08:00

Thinking of going for braces, but the thought of extracting teeth/s? Should I?

2008-07-06T23:14:00.005+08:00

Like I mention, I am going to post about my dinner at Indulgz Bistro with my 2 very goods bestie, ping and yan...

From the moment I walked inside Indulgz, thumbs up! Ambience was good and everythings was prefect. So after 15 mins of discussing, we decided on what we are going to order... First we order 3 cocktails, which can be seen below. In Clockwise direction starting from the yellow one, Mango Martini, Flirtini and Apple Martini...

Everythings was great!

Here come our soup! Wild Crabmeat & Fresh Thyme Soup... Taste like laksa!! LOL, there's something about this soup, can you see the breadstick? We was thinking on how to divide it into 3 so yan took is and break it. While breaking it, the soup residue on the stick spattered onto her whole face and hair la, me and ping was laughing!!!

This is something that we love it... Spicy Chicken Bolognaise Melted Cheese Fries! Is spicy, HOT!!! After eating this, I msg my cousin - michelle to give Induglz a try cause the first 2 dishes was almost prefect! However...

This is Oven-Baked Pork Ribs. I tell you, if you want to eat this at Indulgz, I would suggest you to go New York New York because it is too hard to bit it unlike NYNY. But there is something I want to say, the sauce is damn nice compared to NYNY, so is up to you to decide whether you want to try anot... Haha!!!

Char-grilled Ribeye Steak! We order it as medium raw. I don't like the taste and the 3 of us was like laughing at each other when we eat this dish cause after every mouth, We had very wierd faces.. LOL!

We like this! Fresh Seafood Platter with White Pepper Sauce. No comments! I ate the crayfish, mussel and shallop while ping ate the mussel and giant PRAWNS! Yan was like so hungry that she ate the whole thing la!

This is the Flaming Pasta! Did you see a blue color flame on the pasta? Yan was like so proud to tell the waiter that she manage to catch the flame... But the taste is like so wierd la, it taste sweet! Not spicy, not salty but sweet, We rate this dish 2/5 because of the flame..

Next there is something I wanna say, yan's photography skill is totally cannot make it.. Haha, dun believe? look below and compare to the top.

This!

Me and Ping agree that she took this pic till it look like a lump of shit! Haha, oopx, dun be angry!!! Try harder!

Overall I would rate Induglz Bistro
Ambience: 8.5/10
Food: 6/10
Services: 10/10

Well the rest is up to you to decide whether do you want to give Indulgz Bistro a try... Please be inform to make your reservation before you go if not they might not let you enter because the place is so small that only 10 to 15 tables are allow... I saw a lot of people leave cause they did nto make reservation. We went in at 7 and left the place at around 9.20.. Guess how much we spent there? Ordering 3 cocktails, 2 appertizers and 4 main courses. It costed us $54 each amounting to $162 lor..

Our next food outing will be to New York New York.. Shall update again after I go.. Haha!!

2008-07-03T00:20:00.004+08:00

One more post on our trip to Serene center for ice-cream after class last wednesday on Shuyu's Birthday!

This is MinE! 'Mini Alaska'

ThIs is ShuYu! 'Mud Pie'

Fran - 'Hot Fudge'

We went after our Costin Tutorial on shuyu bdae. We check the route on the internet on how to get there from school la, the information was wrong and we walk damn damn damn long to reach the place lor.

See my ALASKA, is strawberry ice-cream and cake coated inside the cream and send it into the oven to tooast it. Taste really nice! Well, for the other 2 would be easy to identify right? Able to get it outside too, ice-cream there was nice and affordable lor...

Next food outing will be on the coming friday to INDULGZ BISTRO with yan and ping... Looking forward man.. Haha, I had made my reservation so confirm got place liao and dun need to wait too.. hahA! Shall update about the food there and photo when I go this friday...

2008-07-02T23:58:00.002+08:00

Time for some outdated photo!

East Coast Park Outing!
All of us!

Joel said 'look like candy'
WoohOo! Another class outing, well ruishan's group never go... Met up at around 12 or 1pm, cant remember, too long forget about the date.. HahA!

2008-06-30T10:41:00.002+08:00

Planning to getaway this September to 'free' myself... Dream is always to go Hong Kong. Hong Kong is a place that we plan to go but ... ... ...

Sound confusing right? Well, the person should know...

Well, back to the main topic, I am planning to go Hong Kong and Macau with S,E,SY,F,J... The 5 of u better dun last minute back out hor. I will go crazy lor.

Well, some of u might know that I went macau last december, funny to go again in such a short period of time. Well, is fun that y I dun mind gg. Love the eggtart, the building, the whole things there.

September will come real soon cause the sem are so fast la, currently is the second week now and in another 4 to 5 weeks, exam will scroll in slowly unknowingly. Work harder! u let yur hard work go down the drain, EDWARD!

Like some saying:

Life is full of unexpected, things might just come and go in your life. Sound so real right? Maybe is time to give up? Well, I should say, I cant do it... ... ...

2008-06-30T10:37:00.002+08:00

Getting real emotional nowadays...

Maybe due to the number of frens are depreciating days by days...

Is there any problems with me with relationship?

Can anyone tell me?

Is friendship so fragile like bubble that once you mishandle it, it will burst?

Am I that difficult to get along?

2008-06-28T02:25:00.002+08:00

Oh ya! Did I mention that I bought a Sony Vaio red colour?

2008-06-28T02:16:00.003+08:00

Feel rather weird today... School start at 9 am and I was like still quite energetic till the lecture in the afternoon.. Blah blah blah, this is not the main point for today post.

I'm thinking that human relationship are like so complicated! Is like when you found someone that you really wish that you can be with her and the fact that she have a boyfriend, you backed out! Sounded confusing right? I also dunno what I am typing now.

Actually, when today you told me that apart from your boyfriend who are so close to you (lying on your shoulder), the other one is me. I was rather awkward at that moment, thinking you are lying but I feel rather happy.. Haha, no hard feeling ok!

No worries! We are still good friends right.. Serious I dunno what I am writing now, just ignore me. Just think that feelings is such as confusing yet interesting things. But there is something I am rather sure about is that I feel very happy with you all beside me.

2008-06-14T01:05:00.005+08:00

Well, just change blogskin.. Shouldnt be so lazy so I shall blog abt wat happened this few days.

Well, common test just ended last friday and this whole week, I am like wasting it except for tuesday cause I went for my basic theory lesson and also the practice. Then the rest of the days is like wasting it apart from staying in at home, I went IT show on thursday and I think I gonna get a new laptop and friday, Goodness la..

Had class outing today, DESTINATION=EAST COAST PARK. Well, went Hong Kong Cafe for lunch and started playing and now is like tan-ned. Played volleyball and cycling for 3 hours.. Ok la, I think everyone enjoy, I suppose! Went bedok for dinner. First time eat so much and trained back.

I also thot that geng bee is 1989 baby la, well I am wrong. Haha.

Oh ya! Lastly, Bon Voyage to Joel for leaving Singapore to Genting today 6.30 am.. Enjoy!

2008-06-09T03:17:00.002+08:00

I'm very happy I changed my blogskin. :}
Well, not me, but my sis did it.
I made her re-do it a lot of times cos I'm no contented with it.
She had to photoshop the picture and do the layout.
Now, I'm asking her to change the font.

P.S Well, this is Nicole Neo actually. Edward Neo wouldn't be so nice to dedicate a thank-you post for his sister who works behind the scene for him.

2008-06-08T23:55:00.005+08:00

Is friendship that fragile?
Does friendship need to be maintain?
I am a lousy friend?
Do you think that I took friendship lightly?

Feeling very sad over a friendship with last only 2 years plus. We were like the best pal in the past and now? Enemies? Cant say so cause we didnt quarrel or anythings? I think the best words is DEAD! I think we both treat each other as dead but seriously, I never. I am still like waiting for the day where we are hanging out tgt and chill. Will that day come? Seriously, this is the first time I hang on to a friendship so long. In the past, I would say lose lose lose lor, is ok! still got other. But I wont that for your case cause is seriously not easy to find a pal that understand you and treat you well.

This is a list of friends that I treasure now and ever:
1) Shi Yan
2) Sin Ping
3)Hui Ting
4) Shuyu
6) Sebastian
7) Joel
8) Eugene Chng
9) Yufen and not forgetting CLASS 5B
10) Herman
11) Zhen Hui
12) Heng Yi, Grace, Daphne and many more from PSYCRE!
13) and especially those secondary school friends that went through alot with me!!!

Seriously I really hope that day will come and will be able to see that you are online on my contact list!!! And then I can put your name in the list above!

2008-06-05T21:10:00.004+08:00

I am so disappointed with myself today. Like what the hell la, I manage to do all the infront part all correctly, just because of the balance sheet I forget to add this add that, 27/27 might become 23/27. I am a fool!!! Is really not easy to get all the front part correctly then now, wrong! EDWARD NEO TENG GUANG is time to wake up your idea to revise and stop being so over-confident. Study harder for tml taxation paper!!!

2008-06-04T00:14:00.003+08:00

Feeling weird again somemore during the time when Common Test is just 2 days away! Although we have lost contact for about nearly 2 years but I dunno how to phrase it, I am just unwilling to lose this friendship. Sometime I really wonder, what is the reason behind it but you never once gave me a answer. Maybe you should give me an answer so that I can understand the reason behind your decision. Is our friendship that fragile that we can be very very good friends for 2 years plus and because of some unknown factor, we became enemy or I should say, you pretend that I dun exist? Well, at least give me a answer. Maybe till then, well maybe then I can accept it. My friendship with you is the first friendship that I ever treasure so much compared to the other. Well, maybe then we are be friend again. Haix.. I dunno what I am writing too.. Just pray hard that day will come and we can be friends again like in the past. I believed you know who you are!

2008-05-14T23:26:00.000+08:00

FRUSTRATED!

2008-05-13T11:53:00.005+08:00

What a stupid and irritating day!!!

I never seen someone so rude before! If you wanna join our group, please kindly inform other about your decision and let the group memeber to think first right!?

FU*K!!!! Trying to be funny arh? Alway trying to get attention in class and even lecture where 200 over peoples are in the same hall, please lor, I dun think is funnying! Damn you! I dun see a point as in why should I be in the same group with you.

Wake up yur idea la!

2008-05-13T01:17:00.003+08:00

I really dunno when was the last time I really smile from the bottom of my hearts!

Today was great, last day of my IS class so till June, monday no need to attend class. Of course will miss the class and the people there. So funny, especially heng yi! LOL..

Random stuff! I seriously dunno how should I communicate with my dad. I feel frustrated when he talk to me or watsoever and I seriously dunno how to deal with it. SOMEONE help me!?

Last 1 month, I was resting low and also no mood to update my blog but I promised that I will update more frequently compared to the past. Sorry to those who are consistently clicking on my blog!

Till today, I finally know who is my true frenx!

2008-04-01T22:30:00.003+08:00

Thanks everyone for yur concern, I am feeling better now but occasionally, I still have the same symptons like 2 weeks ago. But no worry, I aint going to let this affect the chalet! Sebastian, I promise I will go for the chalet as long nothing goes wrong for my follow up this coming thursday! Cya soon!

Indeed, I now then realised who is really true to me! Blah blah vlah, gonna rest liao...

Oh ya! Shiyan, I didnt informed you because I dun wanna let u and ping worried for me. I am feeling very good now but a bit of strengthless and occasionally chest pain. But is really Ok! cya soon!

2008-03-28T10:11:00.011+08:00

Well, Finally back to blogging. So many things and first experience happened to me during the last 10 days.

On 15 March(SAT), while mahjong-ing, I got a sudden chest pain, thinking it might be a pull in the muscle, I didnt give much care to it.

16 March(SUN), chest pain and back pain was better, went shopping and massaging with my mum, aunts, cousin and grandma.

17 March(MON), went for my driving lesson theory class in the morning, surprising that I can wake up so early in the morning instead of lying on the bed? Headed home after the lesson. While having lunch, my chest hurt even more compared to SAT and thinking the pull is serious, I went to c doctor. Doctor then refer me to go Jurong Point and take X-RAY suspecting it to be PNEUMOTHORAX(COLLAPSED LUNG). So I was refer to Alexandra Hospital. The GP damn cute one lor, she told me to go take X-RAY then ask me when free, I told her tml, she said cannot, must today so I went. She then ask me when can I go Alexandra, I told her tml, she SAID, cannot- dangerous, must go today.

So I went as advised by the GP, she told me abit sure go there make appointment for follow up. But when I was there at the A&E, the doctor told me is quite serious must drain out. So they first use needle and insert to my right upper chest and drain the air out. He drained 250ml of air and off to take my X-RAY again. He came ack 20 mins and told me, nvr drain finish. Must drain again, so this time he drained 800ml of air out. Take X-RAY again and was told that GOOD, the air are gone but must stay in A&E for 4 more hrs to monitor. I still rmb that doctor name 'Gavin Lim', a very good doctor and 'Massarinah' the cute nurse. 12 midnight take X-RAY again, this time is not a good news. He Said "air enter again and now must insert chest tube". OMG, is a tube inserted into my chest OK!? I was lying on the bed in A&E pondering whether should I let them do this, dad was with me. I called MUM and she told me to go for it cause if not is life-threatening! At that moment, a lot of thots when through my mind, I was thinking about my time-table enrolment, Thailand trip and many many stupid things. at 2.30am. I decided to let the doctor cut a small hole on my chest to insert the tube in. I was awake when he cut the hole but I dun feel anything. Till 4am plus, I was pushed to my ward to rest. However the wound hurt a lot when the anesthesia get off. Ask for doctor, doctor 1 hr then come. OMG! Is freaking painful OK!

Can u imagine, 8 needles entering yur body and 6 X-RAY in a mere 12 hrs.

First 2 days was a torture, the tube side hurts. On thursday, I thot I can go home, just in time for the Thailand trip but the doctor said U have to stay, the air is still there, no improvement. So he ask the nurse to put me on water suction not liposuction. haha!! No feeling for that, U wouldn't feel as if there a force sucking the air out. Well, thursday(20 March), mum came and told me to take care of myself while they left for Thailand, feeling moody, luckily, JOEL AND FRAN came and visit me!! They really cheer me up and make me laugh when I shouldnt be laughing cause laughing hurt! haha. They acc me till 10pm that night. Thanks JOEL and FRAN!

Friday (21 March), boring till 6pm plus, Sebastian and Ying Qi came. Make me laugh again and we even play cards in the ward lor! haha.. however my chest hurt badly at 9pm and I asked them to leave cause they said they wanna acc me till the doctor came but well the doctor very slow one, so ask them to leave first. Doctor came and 9.30pm and I rmb I was watching the TV. Then the nurse came in and say she gonna give me a jab, I was like so afraid then she told me she very skilled. Indeed, no feeling. The next moment, I found myself very slpy and slp liao. Thanks Sebastian and Ying Qi! Sat, no one came except my aunt.

Sunday was a bad day, the nurse forget that they attached my tube on the bedsheet and they pull me up and the tension cause my chest to hurt deeply and I dun even have to strength to talk for the whole day and when night came, things got worse, chest hurt even more and no choice, painkiller dun work. JAB again. after that sleep. Monday thot can go home, still cannot.

Tuesday, the doctor came told me that I can remove my tube from my chest today, I was like so happy and afraid. Happy because I am not gonna be affected by the tube and afraid of the pain when pulling it out. When the doctor came, I was like so scared and he told he, when he pull it out must said EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE for as long as I can, not easy lor when I am so tired that day, after removing it, he told me tml might go home liao. who knows. wed they came again. One more days for observation.

Finally, thursday came, doctor told me 99% can go home after taking X-RAY so long is fine then no problem. when X-ray while having lunch. TATA! everythings fine. Finally can discharge after 10 longs days of days in hospital.

Well, A lot of first experience for me. Small surgery! 15 needles in 10 days! 15 X-Rays in 10 days! 10 days of resting on bed with less than 15 hrs that my foot touches the ground! Bathing with the help of the nurse! And many many more, not too convenience to say here! haha...

Now must really take care of myself cause reading all the report on the Internet, It might come back. 40% that high ok! I seriously hope it wont come back. Is really tiring!

Last thing, guess my hospital bills how much for 10 days? Is 2.7K!

2008-03-12T00:30:00.001+08:00

What Neo Teng Guang Edward Means

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone.

You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together.

At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together.

You are well rounded, with a complete perspective on life.

You are solid and dependable. You are loyal, and people can count on you.

At times, you can be a bit too serious. You tend to put too much pressure on yourself.

You are a seeker. You often find yourself restless - and you have a lot of questions about life.

You tend to travel often, to fairly random locations. You're most comfortable when you're far away from home.

You are quite passionate and easily tempted. Your impulses sometimes get you into trouble.

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life.

You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone.

Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs.

You are a very lucky person. Things just always seem to go your way.

And because you're so lucky, you don't really have a lot of worries. You just hope for the best in life.

You're sometimes a little guilty of being greedy. Spread your luck around a little to people who need it.

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row.

You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace.

People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality.

You are very charming... dangerously so. You have the potential to break a lot of hearts.

You know how what you want, how to get it, and that you will get it.

You have the power to rule the world. Let's hope you're a benevolent dictator!

You are wild, crazy, and a huge rebel. You're always up to something.

You have a ton of energy, and most people can't handle you. You're very intense.

You definitely are a handful, and you're likely to get in trouble. But your kind of trouble is a lot of fun.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

2008-02-26T23:43:00.006+08:00

Update on CNY!~

First day of CNY - As usual, we are the earliest of all and rot in the living home for 2 hrs plus before all my relative came strolling in. Nothing much, played mahjong during evening, won a few dollars.

Second day of CNY - My relative came to my house. Hmm, a busy day. As usual, play mahjong, lost 20 bucks.. haha. Sis bf also came over, he like so formal lor! LOL...

Third day of CNY - Went over to my third's aunt place. Boring, mahjong. lost 60 plus. That day was also a day that I am so afraid of playing mahjong cause can u imagine 5 tai 20 dollars when I normally played 12.80.

Fourth and fifth day of CNY - Went my second's aunt place, MAHJONG AGAIN! LOST AGAIN.. PEH PEH PEH, so unluckily.. haha..

2008-02-26T23:24:00.003+08:00

Well.. Is again more than a month since I last updated! Sorry anyone who constantly check for update. This 1 month was hell for me (only for the first 2 weeks). LOL! Cause I have my major exam and was mugging hard for it. Hmm, seriously I am so afraid that I might fail my BMGT because of the F***king teacher. I forgo my trip to Malaysia during CNY to go for the exam OK!

Sorry Xian! PS u when I told you that I am going.. Very sorry! haha, I think this apologise came too late too. Hmm, cant stand them, say wan to go thailand then now cancel again. I really look forward for a trip with u like that time we went Genting and the time when we laughed like crazy when I falled from the staircase at the Merry-Go-Round and orchard. "I wan go PARAGON"

Apart from studying for my exam, I am busy with my appealing to Junior College. Well, I got posted to INNOVA, which I nvr intend to go so I appealed down and thanks bros for accompany me there whne the sun is scorching and the pathway is so damn long.

Today my appeal result for SAJC, NYJC and JJC are out and I am so disappointed when I cant get into the school. Well, for JJC-> if they accept me, I am not going too cause they make me settle for a course I dun wan. Well is kind of disappointing and my sis was like so happy and make sarcastic remark. Hmm, her bf, J.LEE are more understanding and told her to stop rubbing in. Actually I am quite happy for her when she found such a good bf but then well I really dunno what she thinking off. J.LEE-> better take care of my sis cause my relationship with her are getting closer and closer, better dun bully her! LOL

Well, although my appeal failed, I am not going to give up so easily, I am gg to work even harder next sem if I manage to scape through my whole module and proceed to the other level. Well, although I am not able to enter JC, is ok! Just hope that my crazy sis would do well so at least help me fulfill my wish. Your desire for a BURBERRY WALLET, I will consider it and if I willing to help you pay, I promise that you will be able to get it before yur bdae.

Oh ya, Happy Belated BDae to Ping! cya on thursday!

Lastly, hope that I can pass my this sem. May God bless me!

2008-01-30T13:07:00.001+08:00

Hmm is been 1 month and 1 day since I was updated! So today, I shall update what happened in this 32 days...

31 Dec 2007

I went esplanade with 2 of my bestie to countdown. Let c 1 photo! The fireworks was so beautiful. Reached home at 3 am in the middle of the night.. Well on the way home, we talked abt how many true frenx we had and guess wat? The 3 of us have less than 10 true frenx. LOL!

1 Jan 2008
Is a brand new year today! Slept in and was resting at home after spending the whole night out.

2 Jan - 16 Jan 2008
Is being very tiring, all the project are dueing and my group are doing the last preparation and doing last minute editing of our works. On the 16 Jan, I went to buy leather shoes and ties for my presentation tml and luckily, bro/Boss went with me.. LOL. On the way home, I saw ZIYING! Nvr knew that she work around my estate there.. She working as a clinic receptionist! Cant believe it wor!

17 Jan 2008
Business Law presentation was on since morning and everyone was so formal.. The scene was so intense where every group was vying to get an 'A' for the project. Hard work was finally paid off, my group get an 'A-'! The money spent on the clothings was worth it. LOL... Teacher praise that everyone look so smart.. Wahaha...

22 Jan 2008
BCA presentation again.. Last major project... Luckily fran and I was prepared for it cause the teacher was so 'biased' that he often think that sebastian and shu yu done the whole things.. well I would deny that I only help out in the macro part.. LOL.. Seriously, just feel that being in the same group with them was the most happy thing. Group Name: FESSY! Ever wonder how this name came abt? Is by using the initial of our name! LOL LOL LOL!

23 Jan 2008
No lesson for today so rest at home! Started painting my room white at 3pm cause the previous colour was so dark that I need white to cover up before I can paint another colour.. Will post picture when I finally painting my room!

27 Jan 2008
Wow.. The first time I wake up so early in the morning and u know what? Went shopping with my sis and ahsianx.. LOL, meet at 11am then headed raffles city to get crumpler bag then headed marina square and next took bus to orchard. The bus was creepy ok! Bus 502, the bus driver stop when there is no one and he even open the door. As the bus left only the 3 of us on board, we even thot that the bus is invisible to the other.. LOL.. The headed Far East, DFS, Wheelock, Taka, Paragon and lastly heeren.. Met mum and dad for dinner, home sweet home!

29 Jan 2008
BCA presentation result was revealed... We got an 'A'!!! So happy lor!

30 Jan 2008
Last day of my IS class.. Is wonderful ok! Dun need to face ppl I dun like.. Shh! Dun tell you!

Actually this whole sem was a fruitful one, my result was not too bad.. Macroeconomic was gd too.. Scored quite well for both test! Well that's all for today! Shall update on my new year resolution soon!

2007-12-29T00:05:00.000+08:00

Happy 18 Birthday to Me!

Thanks Herman and Zhen Hui for getting a present for me although I already have that shirt, I appreciated that alot. Thanks Buddys, Time passed so fast that we are friends for 6 years already...

2007-12-27T00:16:00.000+08:00

Hi everyone, I am back from my holiday trip for 2 days but couldn't find time to update so I shall update now or else my blog will seem so dead!

Is gonna be a long post today so wash up now and then started reading...

Day 1 (20 Dec)
I reached Guangzhou Bai Yun Airport at around 12 pm. The weather there is cooling, 18 degree celsius. The airport design look like HongKong one. Well this is not important, next Uncle Zhen came to pick us up to have lunch. Novotel Hotel if I didnt remember wrongly, well but the food there doesnt really suit me (maybe is the first day still not used to it). Then we board the car and begin our journey to the hotel. The name of the hotel is called Ocean Spring Hotel. Well I can remember it so clearly because that hotel is damn good lor. Well I only took 1 picture in the bathroom. Is grand hor! Rest for a while and we proceed to have dinner and after dinner... We plan to go for the hot spring but everyone was drained of energy hence we have an early night.

Day 2 (21 Dec)
Today's weather is 17 degree celsius. We went to the hotel Theme Park. Let the photo do the talking.

I am deprived of childhood ok! Heh, actually is that I am getting dizzy!

My Sis went up and play this alone, I didnt join her cause this machine is gonna hang u upside down.

The one on my right is Uncle Zhen who keep us accompany for 5 days. He's my uncle friend.

At around noon, we left and headed for Zhuhai Town area. We went for lunch and I order cheese lobster and what happened was that the lobster was so big and have a lot of fresh and my family member only help to eat some. No choice, I have to finish up the lobster even through the taste is... Till now, the sight of lobster irkes me. Next,we checked into a Villa like hotel. Then we headed to a place to play open concept cable car like the one at Sentosa but is different over there, is higher and colder.

There are some photos:

My stupid Sis actually scream, my mum got a shocked and turned back because the handle can be lifted up lor!

Same again, do some shopping and have dinner. After dinner, back to hotel. Then before we sleep, I have some snack with my sis and aunt at level 1 cause the villa have 3 storey, dunno what brings me to peek out of the door hole, I saw a green figure outside and the second time I look is a eye staring at me. The very moment I broke down lor.. But then I open the door and found out that is because of the Santa Claus hanging outside and I laughed at myself lor.

Day 3 (22 Dec)

We went Macau, the first thing we reached there is to enter the Casino. At the first attempt, the person requested to see my IC and then she refuse entry and guess what? My sis actually get in lor, look like I am very kiddish.

The second attempt, I got in and I went to play the jackpot and Big/Small and won 30 sing dollars.. haha, very little hor! I vow to go back there oneday.

Venetian is grand Ok! c some pictures ba!

That's the casino below!

All this is taken inside Venetian!

After visiting the casino, we went to have portuguese lunch. After that we went to visit some place and do abit of shopping.

Next we went to Macau Highest building and I wanted to try skywalking but none of them want to play and due to time constraint also dun have a chance, I vow to play that oneday! For my sis, she want to play that bungee jump which is to jump down from the 61 storeys. After that we went to buy the famous portuguese eggtart. WOW! That was delicious~ Then we headed back to Zhuhai and have dinner real late.

Day 4 (23 Dec)
Checked out to continue our trip to Guangzhou. On the way there, we went to a hilltop where there is a Goddess of Mercy.. Very cool up there.. Then have lunch at a country club and on the way to a theme park, we pass by a strawberry farm and I plucked strawberry for the very first time in my life.. It was drizzling hence very very cold.

Then we proceed to the theme park to watch circus.. Damn good ok! Better than those in Singapore.. Well, didnt take any photo there. After watching, we checked into the hotel and have dinner real late close to 11pm. The temperature outside now is 10 degree celsius as it is raining heavily now.. COLD!

Day 5 (24 Dec)
The day for us to leave is here.. So we wake up very early and do all the last shopping till 4.30pm before we depart for the Airport.. I only bought 2 items throughout the trip and nothing more except somethings for my 6 years buddys to eat...

Reached Singapore at 11pm... Home Sweet Home at 1am...

Lastly, I have changed my opinion of China... But not for all places.. Only for Guangzhou, zhuhai and hai quan wan!

Thanks Uncle Zhen for bringing us to all those places and lot of laughter although he cant c this post.. Thanks you very much.

p/s: Throughout the whole journey, we shifted 3 hotels and eat inside room in restuarant... Anyway must thanks my xiao jiu for everythings...

Oh ya, Uncle Zhen gave me 2 riddle that I spent 1 night to think about the answer... try doing...
1,5,5,5 -> U are only allow to use the no. once and using + - / x, make it equal to 24

2,4,5,9,10,100 -> same thing.. make it equal to 566

2007-12-19T00:30:00.001+08:00

Wahaha.. 2 of my very good bro came over to my hse last night and ton the whole night...

We played mahjong till 3.30am and guess wat, we all fallen asleep at 5am...

Thanks Bros, Thank for being with me all this time...

Once again, CONGRATULATION Bee Sian For Making to Sec 5... Study hard... Meet up soon ba, if not yur Bdae Present will become very very very de BELATED!

2007-12-19T00:18:00.000+08:00

Wahaha.. I forget to post about my trip to Port Dickson with my wonderfullest family and TEMPORARY SHORT-HAIRED...

First photo taken with my hair colour copper brown... haha..

That all for now...

2007-12-12T12:01:00.000+08:00

Heh! My friends and I are doing a project... Please help me do the survey..

Thanks alot...

Link: http://www.surveymonkey.com/s.aspx?sm=Tkoh1Zy8wBN_2fofDvxgKXuA_3d_3d

2007-12-12T11:56:00.000+08:00

Finally, Common Test is OVER! Is time to relax..

Wanna ask something. What will you do if you found out that you only have 1 day more live? What will you like to do?

For me, I prefer spending the last day of my life with my family and bring along those memorize I shared with them for the last day.

So share with me! What will you do?

2007-12-04T22:43:00.000+08:00

December is HERE again... My Bdae coming finally. I love the joy of Christmas! U like? Imgaine when you wake up in the morning and was preparing to go to school, once u open the door, u saw snow and kid playing wif snowman... Isnt it wonderful? Of course, how I wish oneday I am able to do so... But now, i think I gonna concentrate on getting well and not causing unecessary harm to my health, dun wish to elaborate too much.. Merry Christman in advance everyone!

May everyone be happy 4eva,
Edward

2007-11-28T23:19:00.000+08:00

I really dunno how to live with the past! Anyone can teach me?

2007-11-27T14:16:00.000+08:00

Came back from Port Dickson 2 days ago, wahaha.. Well, saturday was so upset that i drank... well, I dun wish to elaborate too much on that. Sunday as usual,went to play sea sport. BANANA boat again, damn it lor.

The person was like asking me whether do I wan to boat to turn over, hence I ask my dad and uncle but in the next minute, I was in the middle of the sea alone like what happened at BINTAN island.. haha..

Ate alot of things lor, seafood my favorite and curry chicken in a bun..

Miss Temporary was like so hyper after she finished a meal and start moving around in the car. Well, have a quarrel with my sis over there. U must understand, what mum said really HURT! hence, u know. But I only told dad about it. Well, is up to u to decide. If u are in my shoes, u will understand wat I am feeling at that moment.

BCA PBL presentation is finally over. That stupid teacher is like pin-pointing student which he feel that they never do anything. SHIT HIM LA.. Luckily fran and I manange to answer all his question. Cant blame, Fran and I got fabulous memory.. HAHA.. Right fran?

Ok! Shall stop here, must concentrate in class... haha!

2007-11-22T23:55:00.000+08:00

Dye hair not? I dunno.. Haha.. Seriously, I wan.. dunno, confuse.. haha.. Blaw tutorial haven finish still here to blog.

2007-11-20T09:17:00.001+08:00

Aiya! long time nvr blog .. Haha~~~~ Sunday was doing spring cleaning at home and dad bought a lot of foods and guess what? We waste a lot of foods, shall update the photo soon.. School is so boring.. Forever test, presentation and other.. SHIT! Well is OK! I going for holiday soon.. wahaha..

2007-11-15T23:02:00.000+08:00

Wahaha.. Was reading my sis blog just now and realised that she talk about me..

To SIS: Is ok! As long after taking out on me, you feel better.. When I go then it will be my turn... haha~

Well... Sebast,u might be right! All this things actually I can overcome it, but seriously give me sometime.. I believe I can do that! Must have faith in me. OK?

Realise that my friendship with poly frenx are getting stronger day by day, well... Believe me, If I go JC, I will find time and go back poly and have lunch with u all.. ok?

Today, I then realised that there is alot of rubbish in my room.. 2 bigs plastic bags.. Finally, I am going to paint my room.. Haha..

Christmas is cumin and this mean that my bdae is cumin too..

To SIS: I wan something special this time hor! Erm, AIX top? or ZARA? 2? Haha

Anyway, I decide not to think too much and rather bask in family warmth. I believed that my family will always be there for me. Sometime I feel that I am rather foolish.. Well, I learnt! I grown up le!

To POLY FRENX: Heh, we shall celebrate christmas together this year!

36 more days, I am going for HOLIDAY!

2007-11-15T00:55:00.000+08:00

Actually I found myself very EMO!

Guess wat? Through my school module IAC, I found out that I am more of a introvert than a extrovert. Well, this is not today main issue. Actually I think I am crazy, always thinking of things that make me sad and very confused. Seriously, is this DEPRESSION? Well, I dunno... Y not U all tell me?

Life is boring, dun u all think so? EMO? I think I am a EMO kid! Emotion always got me into sadness... Take a break? I hope so! I really wish to forget about a lot of things but y this kind of stupid memories juz cant leave me? Of course, there are memories I wanna keep too. But there are juz some memories to be dump into the deep sea. Y?

Y during my holiday at BINTAN didnt throw those stupid memories into the middle of the deep sea and nvr be able to retrieve it back when I played the BANANA BOAT which I was throw into the middle of the deep ocean? I dun wan those memories to follow me for the rest of my life. Is HURTFUL!

Memories can be diamond but they can also be rubbish. Like my friends said 'Throw those bad memories away if u think they hurt' but no matter what I do, they juz dun leave me. I am tired! Y december dun come tml? Only when I go for HOLIDAY, I felt relief. But is this called running away from problem? There's a lot of things I wanted to share with u all but seriously, I lack of courage..

Well.. Hope my HOLIDAY in DECEMBER will be a fruitful one.. As I will be going to ZHUHAI & GUANGZHOU!

Herman, go KL with me la, after I come back from there.. 26 to 28! I wanna SHOP till I forget everything.

ASK something, is there anything in the world called BRAINWASH?

2007-11-13T21:37:00.000+08:00

Hello everyone! Wahaha.. I think I started to ignore my blog le, so long nvr blog on it.. OHYA! There is something I wanna tell everyone, I will be making my blog private in this few days because I feel that there are some people reading my blog and I dun wish that they read.. Haha~! Therefore, sorry for the inconvenience.. Or, erm maybe I will change the link.. C how it goes ba...

2007-11-06T23:07:00.000+08:00

I'M TIRED!!!

I yearn to have a break. Even is just a small break.. I want a getaway, there alot of things disturbing me. I hate the feeling~! Is tiring, y? Y must I study so hard? Y must I do so much to please everyone? Y? Someone tell me please!* Seriously, I'm very tired but there no way to convey the msg to other and tell them I am tired... I dun like the feeling at all!!!

2007-11-01T23:53:00.000+08:00

Isn't is good to have someone you love to be always by yur side? I longed wanted to have that... There a gal that I like but no courage to tell her.. Sebast, u know right? Argh... fan... I wan a person who are able to stay beside me when I'm down and someone to share my happiness with me! Tell her? dunno?

2007-10-31T00:08:00.001+08:00

Woohoo! My Holiday Trip In December is finally confirmed! Although that the country that I dun really like to go, wahaha~ Hope I will be able to see SNOW***** there! However, my grandma is cumin along... Well.. Is OK! Uncle paying for our hotel and food, wahaha.. & guess, wat it mean?

It means that I can spend on money buying things not using my money but my parents... Hehe!! I oredi spend alot of money buying things and going on Holiday... I am broke.. I think this year, I spend alot of money, around 1K.. Sobx Sobx~

Can you imagine? 300 plus for a Burberry wallet, 500 plus for a LCD TV, 400 plus for a PSP (which I rarely play now)... I gonna save money now... NO CAB FOR ME, NO EXPENSIVE FOOD, NO BRANDED STUFFS, NO NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Update more when I get to know where I will be going in that country when I get to know the itinerary!

2007-10-29T00:00:00.000+08:00

I have decided! Maybe is time to give up and carry on with my live... And YES! I will do that~* Wish me Good Luck~!

2007-10-26T01:55:00.000+08:00

Today* On the way home, I saw my best pal but dunno whether does he still regard me as his best pal... Maybe I'm oversensitive like my sis said but I have a feeling that he pretend nvr c me~

Dunno what bought me to my cabinet and I saw the photo album that I bought 2 years ago after I came back from Starcruise with the 2 of them.. Memories flashed back in my mind... I can still remember crystal clear that we really have a fun time on board... Times at KL, alot alot more~ Go marina south for hotpot!!! Argh** I really miss those days badly... Feeling abit emo I should said!

Found this saying " NEVER FORGET... and remember all those happy times we enjoyed together... and hope we will share many many more." Hope I wished that this will come true to me!

A******R, I apologise to you that if I ever hurt you in any way.. If you really feel that our friendship is so vulnerable, jux tell me.. I really cannot stand the way that you seen me but pretend you didnt.. Is tiring!

In the past, I am certain that you really treat me as a pal but now I really dunno. If you still treat me as your pal, let the past go~

Actually, I think I wrote this post for nothing I should said cause U are bound not to read this~ But well, at least I get this out of my mind, I will be able to sleep...

GoOD NiGhT!!! A simple wish for this year Birthday - To be able to see that you appear online when I sign in to MSN and being your best pal like in the past!!!

I DUN WANNA LOSE ANY FRIENDS ANYMORE... FRIENDS ARE AS PRECIOUS AS DIAMOND WHICH IS PRICELESS!

2007-10-26T01:17:00.000+08:00

Is being long since I last updated and my sis was forcing me to update! So I shall now update what happened since last saturday...

SATURDAY

Woke up at 12pm, then mum was asking whether do I wanna go out with her and I agreed.. But I nvr expect that she is going to buy some stuff with my aunt they all... but something that make me very happy that day was able to get my BURBERRY Wallet~! Mum drop me and my sis at Orchard to go shop around while she go Chinatown... Guess wat? After getting the wallet, I am kinda broke this month* 370 bucks wor!

SUNDAY

Same routine!!! Wake up, go have breakfast then go Grandma's Hse... Boring day!!!

MONDAY

Monday Blues!!! No mood.. Argh*

2007-10-18T01:01:00.000+08:00

Juz now was talking to my sis in her room... Only till today, I realised that I am not HAPPY at all since abt 6 months.. Those 6 months were hell for me..

Didnt even noticed that ppl beside me are so worried for me..

Therefore, this post are dedicated to those who care for me when I am down and depressed.. Thanks everyone, I am alright now.. Better than before~!

Hope to cya soon... Take care*!

2007-10-17T13:33:00.000+08:00

Well~ Although I am back from Bintan 3 days oredi but still haven update at all... So now I shall update U all the wonderful time I have over there although I kena Sunburnt and look like a small, skinny LOBSTER.. Haha!!!

Might be a long post so please wash yur face before proceeding to read if not I am afraid that is too long that U fall asleep..

Saturday morning was a damn tiring day, everyone woke up at 5am to wash up cause our boat was at 8.05am.. Must be wondering 'How come wake up so early?' Is because we have to check in 1.5hrs before departure and the ferry terminal is at Tanah Merah (somewhere near Changi).. What happened was that my aunt didnt answer the call when we call her as we were running late, so Panicked.. LOL* after 15 mins of calling, she finally answer and guess wat, she jux woke up.. OMG, told her gonna set off at 5.30! 5.15 then she wake up.. But luckily everything went well and then went to pick my grandma up...

Walao.. When we reached the terminal, everyone was so hungry* So we proceed to have breakfast... after that we board the boat.. the journey was a mere 55 mins.. but mummy was not feeling well and vomit... The first day was so boring as we didnt do much as my mummy was dizzy the whole day..

After a rest, we went PASAR OLEH OLEH...

Tell U something, the fried rice with crab damn nice lor.. Let u c the picture and make u drool.. Is damn damn damn delicious..

Appealing right?

After lunch we shop around there, but we didnt buy anything.. Ohya, the time there is 1 hr behind Singapore... We went back to the hotel and went to the beach and play, guess wat.. As the water was so clear, we saw a JELLYFISH***

Dinner time, we went to the kelong Restaurant and have dinner.. Woohoo.. Things there still ok although the food are fresh but the crab dun taste nice and watermelon juice taste bland although the colour look appealing..

Night time, we went to the pub and play pool lor..

I drew it ok!

The exciting part now, after breakfast~ We went to play sea sport.. Banana Boat u know? I am the first to drop into the sea u know.. Alone somemore as i was sitting at the end*** The most impt part is that when I fall into the sea, my mum who was sitting infront of me didnt realise that her son was gone..

When I was in the middle of the sea alone, a thought came into my mind... Will there be shark coming after me.. wahaha.. luckily the person who was driving the boat realise it and came to rescue me.. If not, who know what might happen.. haha!!!

Went Pasar Oleh Oleh again to eat the fried rice again as we are leaving in 2 hrs time.. Bought a few polo shirt which dun cost cheap and guess wat.. There are so many imitation of branded bag over there... Burberry, LV, Chanel and Gucci... Although they are imitation, they cost $100 over... I gonna go Orchard & get my burberry wallet soon..

Oh ya.. Some scenery photo for the sickly boy.. enjoy...

p/s: Su yu leave a tag if u are reading.. haha

2007-10-13T00:03:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!! Going bintan in less than 6 hrs... Looking forward for this day since 2 months ago... Wahaha... Sickly boy, dun worry... I will take many photo for you to c... Post more when I am back...

2007-10-06T05:24:00.000+08:00

Do my test and C how well u know me till today! Scroll down and u will be able to attempt it.. Quick!

2007-10-02T23:53:00.000+08:00

Argh.. Jux now went IKEA with mummy and sister...Nothing much, didnt buy anything.. But on the way home, it was hell for me!!!

We boarded a cab and the driver was criticising about the life on the other hand and the next moment, he praised that life in Singapore is good compared to the other countries.. Argh!

His voice was lke damn loud and somemore the cab is a confine area, can u imagine? Luckily it was jux like a 15 to 20 mins ride if not...

Feeling very vexed now, still deciding whether should I go and apply for JC tml? I really wonder is this the right choice? huuhh! Someone help me!!!

2007-10-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

Finally realised that I didnt blog for quite a long time... Well, I am here to say something. The thing that I wanna announce is that I have decided to withdraw from Polytechnic and to join Junior College next year.. Therefore this wednesday, I will be going to CMPB to apply for permission to change of my course.. Wish me good luck so that they will approve hence I will be able to go JC..

Although going to JC is my dream now, there are things that I dun bear to let go in poly.. Such as my frenz -> Sebastian, JinYing, ShuYu, Fran, Jacqueline, Belinda, Joyce and many many more... Even though this sem is only a short 4 months but during this 4 months, I really enjoyed all of you being beside me and to support me when I am down especially during that period.. Thanks Sebastian and Joyce..

I also miss JinYing, always calling me monster and telling me that dinosaur can spit fire.. Haha

Sebastian for his blurness.. Always talk halfway and left me to think on my own... I bet u know what I am talking abt right? Sebastian..

Jacqueline for her straight-forwardness and many many more..

Seriously, even if I am able to transfer to JC.. All of u are still my best pal I ever had.. Still remember the Sentosa trip? Although not everyone turned up for that day, that is one of the day that I ever enjoyed in my life... Thanks!

P/S: Remember to keep in contact if I really go JC.. Dun forget me hor...

Edward

2007-09-20T01:15:00.000+08:00

人生就像一场戏，因为有缘才相聚。

相服到老不容易，是否更该去珍惜。

为了小事发脾气，回头想想又何必。

别人生气我不气，气出病来无人替。

我若气死谁如意，况且伤神又费力。

邻居亲朋不要比，儿孙琐事由他去。

吃苦享乐在一起，神仙羡慕好伴侣。

Well.. I wrote this because I think that this saying are very meaningful...
Sorry for those who cant read it but seriously is very meaningful to...
I know it seem weird half chinese and half english but I not too good with Hanyu Pinyin...

Feeling moody again.. Getting abit emo now.. Although my bdae are around the corner in another 3months but I dun think I will be able to enjoy.. Although most likely I am gonna spent my bdae at Thailand but I am not happy because this year, I gonna turn 18.. Legal age to do many things -> Learn driving, go lounge at StarCruise and many more..

However this remind me of our promises with my best pal 2 years back when we went StarCruise.. We promised each other that when we all turn 18, we will go StarCruise again and this time round to enter the lounge.. But willl this day ever come? I really dunno and dun even dare to think abt!? Sometime I asked myself 'Y things came to this extent?' But me myself dunno it either.. Can someone give me an answer to this? I really want to know..

To me, friends are like diamond.. Very precious therefore I treasure it but y other can jux take friendship as rubbish? When u need it then u treat the person well.. Is friendship suppose to be that way? Friend are like a chopstick, if u dun take yur friends seriously -> they will break easily when u try to break them into half but if the friendship is strong, it will nvr break. One chopstick break easily but 15 chopstick dun break easily..

Maybe u said that I dun take friendship seriouly, U are wrong! I always try to maintain a strong friendship so that I know that my friends are always beside me when I ever need help.

But do u care? Or u take me for granted? Always there for u when u nd me?

I really dunno what to say anymore! Gonna have a cold bath and slp!!!!!!!!!!

2007-09-19T00:56:00.000+08:00

Today woke up at 8 am to chose my time-table. Although I got into the time-table I want but something make me feel very sad because one of my close frenx didnt get it.

Time passed so quickly, first sem have passed.. Is really time to say goodbye to A09.. Although feeling reluctant but well, things really dun turn out the way we want...

To TA09: Good Luck to those not going same class as me next sem.. Good Luck for yur future endeavour!!!

2007-09-17T00:15:00.000+08:00

Mummy is finally back from Genting Highland. She went for a holiday with my cousin and her sister and mum for 2 days... And now she is finally back.

Days at home without her around is chaos, no one washed the clothes, cook and many many more. Now then I realised that mummy work so hard for the family...

But now she is back, I think I have to help her with some of housework chores... Well, I think I will only help for the first few weeks ba cause there is a saying "Saying is easier than done".

Wahaha... Soon is my turn to go for holiday too.. Kuala Lumpur and Bintan, well hope that I can really get over all those unhappy things when I am back from the holiday as I really really moody during this period of time...

That's all for today, Bye

2007-09-12T01:44:00.000+08:00

Jacqueline was urging me to update so I shall do it now! What should I update? Ya.. My class outing on monday with my secondary frenx...

Woohoo... Is being months since we last met and they changed alot, be it in the way the dress or look.. Well... all words seem boring, so photo for u all to c..

The Guys!

The Gals!

Half of my class but got someone extra over there at the far left!

After dinner, went for pool and arcade at lucky plaza and i reached home at 12 plus.. woohoo, luckily mummy was asleep when I went back...

Last wednesday went to celebrate mummy bdae and omg, dad bdae and also cumin real soon in another 2 weeks, this month really broke liao.. Wahaha... Any kind soul are willing to spare me money? Wahaha.. That's all... Is late.. Nitex

2007-09-05T17:59:00.000+08:00

Went go celebrate mum bdae last night. Things went well, didnt quarrel over what to eat as we normally did... But we made the wrong choice. We plan to go Paris Ris park 'Fisherman Village' but mum wanna go 'No signboard'.. Ok la, food there are acceptable except my favourite 'chilli crabs'... Not nice at all... Argh, nvrmind, dad bdae are also cumin in a few more weeks and my holiday at bintan.. Woohoo, I will be able to eat my fill at Bintan Lagoon... Enough of this...

Feeling moody, damn moody this few days... Somethings juz cant seem to get better... Argh, very frustrated... Luckily got one person who are willing to lend a listening ear and eye... U know who u are! Luckily that person are willing to help me think of a solutions.. Thanx!!!

When will I be able to be free again? Someone please guide me along!

2007-09-01T19:46:00.000+08:00

Woohoo! I have changed the song... Enjoy!

2007-09-01T02:25:00.000+08:00

Kinda feeling very funny today... Maybe is because of Teacher's Day. I think too much today, I feel that I am quite useless... Juz because of something that happened in my life that leave a big impact on me, I dare not return to my secondary school to visit all my wonderfullest teacher like Mrs Heng, Mr Lee, Mrs Jacqueline Ng, Mdm Rani and many many more. Although yesterday, I contact Mrs Heng telling her I will be back to see her but in the end, I did not... I am useless right? Juz because of a setback, I dun dare to go back cause of being... (I dun wish to say). But this thing really have to give me some time to sort out my thinking in order for me to really walk out of this big big circle... I felt that I am within this big circle for months and I really tried very hard to get out of it, but to no valid... Maybe is not because of teacher's day alone but is alone my beloved aunt third anniversary. Kinda miss her alot cause out of my aunt, I should said that I Love Her the most cause she doted on me and my sis... So no matter what, will be going to offer later... Haix... Sometime I really wonder that my friends would rather said me what happened in past and not to believe someone one-sided story that make me really awkward to talk to them..

Please, I am a vulnerable person who cannot really take any blow. I spent my whole one year thinking and trying hard to overcome everything but does it really help me? Seriously, I really dunno.. I really miss those days that I spent with my wonderfullest friends, spending those innocent, happy days together. I really miss those days. But if you all ask me to ask them out for a outing, I doubt I will be able to do so.

Sometime I really think that I am very lucky to know some friends like Jacqueline, Sebastian, JinYing and Joyce and many many more that really accompany me during those darkest days in my life and most importantly, the person that I really wish to thank is Mrs Heng... The WONDERFULLEST teacher in the world who really walk with me and gave me a lot of support for me stand up again... Once again, THANK Mrs Heng and also to wish other teacher who taught me a Happy Teacher's Day... In order to make up for me not going back today, I promise that I will find one day during my holiday and make a trip back to JSS and visit them..

But right now, I'm trying very hard to stand up again to find my previous me back and to solve and problem arising me with confidence and not too hide anymore!!!

2007-08-31T19:47:00.001+08:00

Woohoo! I am here to blog... Thanks for all of your concern, I am fine now. Feeling lota of better as I knew that there are still my friends out there who are still very concern for me.

First thing, Happy Teacher's day to my teacher especially Mrs Heng. Wahaha

Argh... SEBASTIAN, how how how? The outing how? Haven confirm with her right? Quick ask her...

Jacqueline, when are you free? So that I can confirm a date for us to go ice skating.

Belinda, Joyce and the other, please make yourself free on the day to go ice skating so that we can go and have a full day of fun.

Yesterday, I got in touch with some of my secondary friends.. Haha, the feeling is great. At least I knew that I am not forgotten... Stay in contact!