Sunday, August 7, 2011

Just realised that the more I love, the more distant I get. I hate the feelings! How I wished that time will be able to reverse. Perhaps then I shouldnt have started with you. At least I wont be as hurt as Im now.

Everytime I recalled the happy times in the past, the feelings just suck. I longed wanted to go back to the past where I can talk anything under the sun with you. Leaning onto you like a baby, whining with you comforting me. But those were the days.

I seriously hate the feelings of been angry with you over minor issue just to get your attention I guess. I guess I love you more than anything else but everytime when I get the cold shoulder from you, I feel so down. I voiced my feelings out to you but you denied it. You say Im sensitive.

But pls, I dont think Im sensitive. That is the feelings I had from you. I feel like a human ball or a toy that you are sick of playing with it. I dont wish to be treated that way. I lovee you more than anything else. But whenever I think of the way you treat me, I feel hurt. I hate it! I wished to be close with you again baby! I LOVE YOU AND I CANT BEAR TO LOSE YOU!

Please dont let history repeat itself once again! I wont be able to take it anymore.

(9:46 PM)